To tell the story of my relationship with my late husband
and frequent writing collaborator Michael B. Caffrey (1958-2004), I need to go
back to an earlier, simpler time. It was 2001, and it was Christmas. And I
hated it.
Why did I hate it? Is it because I hate Christmas? (Hardly.)
Is it because I was lonely, and was far away from my friends and family,
wondering what would happen next? (Getting warmer . . .)
Well, during the 2001 Christmas season, I was talking to
Michael via instant messaging. He and I had met through a mutual friend in July
of 2001, but as I was going through a bitter divorce, I didn't pay much
attention – excepting one thing: He called me "Barbara" (which is not
my name), and I also, unfortunately, called him "Mike" (which was not
his name). But once we got past that, we got on like a house on fire, and
shared many tales of the books we'd read, the books we were writing, and life
in general.
What I didn't know at the time was, Michael had decided
right then and there that he was going to marry me. But he had the mother-wit
to keep it to himself, as I was very much off men, thank you . . . Jesus Christ
himself could've come down from Heaven and said, "Michael is your soul mate,"
and I'd probably have disbelieved him, as I was just that much off men.
Anyway, Michael lived in San Francisco, while I lived in Iowa. That's why our friendship at this time was conducted long-distance, and mostly consisted of e-mail and instant messaging exchanges.
On Christmas Eve of 2001, Michael and I got into a lengthy
conversation that lasted for well over thirty-six hours straight. We talked
about all sorts of things, and couldn't bear to stop talking with each other. (Thank
goodness for an Internet connection!)
At the end of that conversation, he asked me, "Can we
please consider ourselves dating now?" And I agreed . . . not knowing that
we'd end up happily married six months later, being able to write together,
work together, laugh together . . .
. . . or that he'd die just three, short years later in
September of 2004.
Michael was the most important, influential person in my
entire life. When he died suddenly, I was absolutely devastated. He was only
46. He should've had years – the four heart attacks that killed him were
without warning. He'd passed a stress test eight months previously, and he was
so bright, so talented, such a wonderful person in every possible respect . . .
It was because of the terrible sense of incompletion –
knowing that Michael had not had enough time to get his own work across – that I
made a vow to get all of his work into print. He'd left behind two novels in
various stages of development, one completed novella, and three short stories;
writing with me, we'd had our first short story accepted for publication
("Bright as Diamonds" in the BEDLAM'S EDGE anthology, published in
2005), and had finished another story, "Trouble with Elfs," published
in 2007.
And, of course, he'd worked with me on my novel ELFY, forthcoming
from Twilight Times Books in 2014 – he edited it, helped me figure out the Elfy
language (Bilre), culture, mores and more. But perhaps even more importantly, Michael
was as proud of my work as he was of his own – so how could I not help him, now
that he had passed on and was no longer able to help himself?
The first thing I did was to write 1400 words of internal
monologue into his completed novella in his science fiction/space opera Adventures
of Joey Maverick series, A DARK AND STORMY NIGHT, to make it a legal
collaboration and a little easier to sell (as it's extremely difficult to sell
works by a deceased, unknown author and it's much easier to sell as a
collaboration). I tried several markets, but eventually A DARK AND STORMY NIGHT
ended up at the Written Word Online Magazine and was published in May of 2005.
Then, in trying to pull another adventure from Michael's
oeuvre, I realized I was going to have to do something completely collaborative
in order to come up with a stand-alone adventure for Joey Maverick. So with JOEY
MAVERICK: ON WESTMOUNT STATION, I added subplots, new characters (one of them a
saboteur), and some action to come up with an adventure I hoped people would
enjoy, and did my best to remain consistent with Michael's writing style –
which is absolutely nothing like my own.
Doing all of that took me over a year and a half, as I
needed to research a number of things – feline biology, as one of Michael's
alien species, the Kiral, is feline-derived. Bomb-making materials, and a plausible
reason someone might get a bomb onto a space station and not be found out
immediately. How a space station head of security would act when a lowly
Lieutenant who's not even assigned to the station manages to stop a bomb from
going off. And I had to figure out how to make all of this work within
Michael's premise for the Joey Maverick series, which went something like this:
"Joey Maverick's one, notable adventure that everyone knows about is in the
novella A DARK AND STORMY NIGHT. Everything else he does is so quiet, no one
knows what he's doing."
Or as I decided to think about it, quiet heroism.
Many military men and women do all sorts of things – rescue
missions, disaster relief, etc. – that never get written up in the history
books because they're considered "minor." Yet without them and their
quiet adventures that no one talks about, what kind of world would we be living
on?
And from there, it's just a short step toward figuring out
how to write an adventure that is plausible but definitely would not be
something most people would ever know about – as sabotage on a space station is
probably the very last thing anyone would want to get out. Instead, it would
most certainly be covered up, and would fit Michael's premise as well.
So I wrote the story. Showed it to my first readers. Sent it
around . . . and didn't find anyone interested in it for three years.
Then, I found e-Quill Publishing in Australia. They liked
Michael's writing and put Michael's two Maverick stories plus his three fantasy
stories about Princess Columba and her cat familiar up for sale.
But I found this wasn't the end of the story, either. Because
my American friends were having trouble buying the stories through e-Quill –
something about Australia's version of PayPal not syncing up with the American
version. And then, finally, ELFY was accepted by Lida Quillen at Twilight Times
Books . . . which was the main impetus for me ending my relationship, quite
amicably, with e-Quill Publishing in 2012.
So what was I going to do with Michael's stories now? Well,
the first thing I did was to ask Ms. Quillen if she thought she might like
them, but while there was interest in seeing Michael's three fantasy stories,
there wasn't any interest in his space opera Joey Maverick series.
And money was tight, as it's been since Michael's untimely
passing, so I was worried I'd not be able to come up with decent cover art (as
I knew that was essential if I was going to self-publish).
Fortunately, a friend of mine steered me toward iStockPhoto
(a great place to look for cover art). I found two photos right away that I
felt were perfect for Michael's two stories. Once I had my chosen images, I
sent them to a cover artist for lettering that my friend recommended, and got
them back quickly.
At this point, the process stalled out yet again as I was
unable to get the stories formatted to my liking. This vexed me for nearly a
month until I finally decided to post two RTF files at Amazon . . . and no
one's yet complained about the formatting!
So this, indeed, is my Christmas mini-miracle. It started in
2001 with that lengthy conversation of ours, and it ended with me finally
getting Michael's two stories up at Amazon at the very end of November, just in
time for someone to find them for a Christmas present to give to a special
someone – or maybe just to give to himself.
I like to think that Michael would be happy with what I've
done with his stories. So I'd just like to wish him a Merry Christmas, wherever
he is . . . and I hope that when I go to greet him in eternity, he'll tell me
he knew I could do it.
And smile.
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BARB CAFFREY is a writer, editor and musician from the Midwest. Her humorous fantasy novel, ELFY, will
be published in 2014 by Twilight Times Books, and her story "At the
Crossroads" will appear in the 2014 anthology STARS OF DARKOVER. Previous stories and poems have appeared in BEDLAM'S
EDGE (with late husband Michael B. Caffrey), HOW BEER SAVED THE WORLD, the BEARING NORTH anthology, the
Written Word online magazine, Joyful Online, the Midwest Literary Magazine, and
at e-Quill Publishing. Barb has edited for Masterpiece Comics, the
Written Word, ComicsBulletin.com, is on the editorial board of Twilight Times Books
and completed a copy-editing internship at the sports Web site Bleacher Report.
She reviews books for Shiny Book Review and, more occasionally, at Amazon.com
for their Vine program. And once upon a time, she was an opinion columnist and
arts and entertainment reporter for both the Daily Nebraskan and the University
of Wisconsin-Parkside Ranger News; additional op-eds were published by the
Racine Labor Paper and by the Racine Journal-Times
(under the previous married name).
She is the widow of writer and editor par excellence Michael B. Caffrey
(1958-2004), who was also her frequent co-writer. He completed one novel, MAVERICK,
LIEUTENANT, in his lifetime, and had nearly completed a second, MINIATURES;
both are currently being edited and revised for publication based on Michael’s
notes. One of Michael’s stories in his Adventures of Joey Maverick
series, “A Dark and Stormy Night,” was first published
by the Written Word in 2005, reprinted at e-Quill Publishing in 2010, and is
now available at Amazon. “On Westmount Station,” the second story in the
Adventures of Joey Maverick, was published by e-Quill Publishing in 2011
and is also available at Amazon.
Michael’s three fantasy stories about Princess Columba and her
remarkable cat-familiar were published in September 2010 by e-Quill
Publishing; the fourth, incomplete story will be completed by Barb as soon as
circumstances permit.
Due to Barb amicably ending her professional relationship with e-Quill
Publishing in mid-2012, Michael’s Columba stories are currently unavailable.
Barb plans to bring these stories back out ASAP, as she’s vowed
that Michael’s work — his words — will live on as long as there are people
to read them.
She follows politics, loves sports, watches far too much reality TV and is
mystified by the “Maury” show. What all this says about her is anyone’s guess.
Find her at Elfyverse (AKA "Barb Caffrey's
Blog") for discussions of all and sundry, or at Shiny Book Review. Or send her an
e-mail at barbcaffrey (all one word) AT yahoo DOT com – she'll get back to you.