Having faith in our abilities. Why is that so hard to do? Why do we doubt ourselves?
I went out and checked out some of my oldest posts on my personal blog at WRITING SPACE OLDEST POST and remembered where I was in my life at that time.
Then I recalled how I had gotten from there to here. It's amazing! Life is amazing when you break it down into its tiniest parts.
One thing often overlooked is the fact that we all have a talent (as writers) that is God-given and we are EXPECTED by the Almighty to use it. No matter whether our acceptance ratio is high or our rejection ratio is higher, we are supposed to do this thing that we do.
I would never have imagined in 2004 that I would be where I am today. Thank God I didn't quit writing! I wanted to! I really tried to. It just wouldn't go away.
Now look what's going on? I would have missed all this great stuff if I had thrown in the towel. I just posted my new cover for all the world to see
and as I look at it I marvel! I mean, this is my second piece of fiction to be published. I did this. Me. All I had to go with was my desire to do it, and a modicum of talent.
So. That's my post for this week.
Just be thankful, you guys, and use that gift you have. Even when it hurts. Even when it isn't working. You do not know what lies ahead, but I can promise you the journey no matter HOW arduous, is worth it.
Now, see what I mean? You wrote this for me, didn't you?
ReplyDeleteI'm so there with you. I believe in fate and that sometimes, when we don't see it coming--can't even imagine it, we're thrown into a situation that opens our eyes. I remember my "Ah ha" moment around 2002-03. Had no idea I could write, had no expectations of ever getting published because, after all, everyone else was better than me, yet something kept telling me to go for it.
I'm still amazed and humbled by the path my life has taken and I thank God, family, and all my writing buddies for nudging me along.
Okay, Kim, I'm inspired again. Thank you!!
Sometimes I'm not sure what I believe - but I definitely know I'm with you on not being able to give this up, no matter how much I want to stop fighting and do something normal and predictable and reliable with my life.
ReplyDeleteSo thank you for this post! :-)
hi kim. oh good grief, how i needed to read these words, this excellent post. thank you. it feels like you wrote it for me.
ReplyDeletecongratulations on your second book. the cover looks great!
~maria
I've blogged more than once about the fact that if I'd had good sense I'd have quit writing eons ago. Would have saved a lot of time and money.
ReplyDeleteWhat I would've missed is visiting places I'd have never gone if it weren't for the fact a mystery con was being held there or I was invited to give a writing seminar or speak.
Most of all I would've missed meeting a lot of wonderful people who I now call my friends.
Marilyn a.k.a. F. M. Meredith
http://marilynmeredith.blogspot.com
Kim, sometimes when we're tired we write the most spot-on pieces, and this is one of them. Well said, and so true! When I look back at the last ten years of "writing like the wind," I realize that maybe I was preparing for this new phase in my life, where I might possibly actually make a living from writing. We shall see, but it's an interesting analysis, nevertheless. I love your new cover! It's gorgeous!
ReplyDeleteI so understand this line:
ReplyDelete"It just wouldn't go away."
Sometimes I go a without writing and feel myself tense and fade. Then I sit before my computer and let it out, and suddenly I am rejuvanted! I feel like my old self again and I ask: Why do I do this? Why do I try to hold it in?
I am at my best when I'm creating.
Thank you Kim, I enjoyed reading you. psybie